A Wellspring

We aren’t farmers. It’s good to say that from the start. This past summer our family moved again and this time we chose a home that sits on a little less than 4 acres of land. A good portion is woods, but we are definitely “in the country” side of town. Our neighbors have horses that we can see every morning from our front yard. Down the lane another neighbor has a large garden and the best tomatoes at their farm stand during the summer.

When we bought our home we knew it was on a well. Naively, we thought we knew enough about wells due to a few previous experiences that, in hindsight, did not at all provide us with enough information to believe we knew what it meant to live with a well.

You don’t know what you don’t know

After a few formative experiences, such as learning that standing water around the well did not in fact mean we had a such a surplus of water it was literally bubbling out of the ground – this meant we had a serious leak that should have been addressed at least a month prior – we are quickly realizing that there is a lot to learn about wells. There is also a lot that is simply beyond our control.

When we first moved in, we let the well alone. We didn’t know how to measure its depth, and according to our neighbor the well had always been sufficient for the previous owners. It should be noted, again, hindsight being so clear, that the previous owners were an elderly couple. The water usage in laundry alone when comparing the needs of an elderly couple and our family of eight is rather extreme. So, while the well might have produced more than enough for them, our family has a very different level of need.

After the aforementioned leak experience, we figured out how to measure the well’s depth. We have a spreadsheet where we are tracking the depth of the well twice a week. We also have a rain gauge so we can keep a good account of the amount of rain we get. We have learned things like just because it’s raining today doesn’t mean we will see those gains in the well tomorrow. It takes a few months for the rain of today to filter down deep enough to be seen in the well. And, if there is a dry period, we can expect to see that reflected in the well’s measurements a few months later.

To whom does water belong?

We have learned so much in a few months. And yet, there is little of it we can control besides measuring and watching. Laundry still has to be done. Toilets have to be flushed. Dishes have to be washed and showers taken. We use water all the time. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of the well. We have even started including the well in our nightly prayers as a family.

This whole experience has given me a deeper appreciation for those who rely on the weather for their livelihood and way of life. We are fortunate that we can call a company to bring water to refill the well (we’ve had to once already) when, in our ignorance, we ran it dry. Now, as we learn more, we are striving to maintain a better understanding of the well, where it is sitting, and how we can modify our habits to be good users of the water we have available. Not everyone has such a luxury.

I am also praying my morning prayer with more awareness. So many psalms talk about the importance of water and all its many facets. (The following are quotes from the Liturgy of the Hours translation of the Psalms).

  • O God, you are my God, for you I long; for you my soul is thirsting. My body pines for you, like a dry, weary land without water. Psalm 63:2
  • The Lord’s voice resounding on the waters, the Lord on the immensity of waters; the voice of the Lord, full of power, the voice of the Lord, full of splendor. Psalm 29:3-4
  • The Lord’s is the earth and its fullness, the world and all its peoples. It is he who set it on the seas; on the waters he made it firm. Psalm 24:1-2
  • Indeed you love truth in the heart; then in the secret of my heart teach me wisdom. O purify me, then I shall be clean; O wash me, I shall be whiter than snow. Psalm 51:8-9
  • You care for the earth, give it water; you fill it with riches. Your river in heaven brims over to provide its grain. And thus you provide for the earth; you drench its furrows, you live it soften it with showers, you bless its growth. Psalm 65:10-11

The list goes on. Water doesn’t belong to us. This well doesn’t belong to us. I am discovering our relationship with water in this house is a lot like the Serenity Prayer. We can absolutely take ownership of how we use the water, but we cannot control its availability. We have to rely on God’s providence in the weather.

So much of the big things in life are like this. We have the gift of life, of waking up each morning. We can choose how to spend our day, but we rely on God’s love and mercy to wake us up tomorrow. We can take ownership of our actions, but we cannot demand others act or perceive our actions in a certain manner. We can make great plans for the future and have them all change in a single day.

Through this well, our family is learning to rely even more on God. We are learning to be more patient and to be more aware of the gifts He provides the earth in the form of rain. Water is precious. Life is precious. While it would be so much easier to be on city water, I wouldn’t trade these lessons and conversations we have had because of our well.

Daily Graces. kktaliaferro.wordpress.com

Tolkien’s Liturgical Imagination – Course Review

I was delighted to have the opportunity to participate in the St. Paul Center’s Emmaus Academy this January. I was able to take the course Tolkien’s Liturgical Imagination presented by Dr. Ben Reinhard. This course covered a wide range of topics, both liturgical and Tolkien, as perhaps the name suggests. It did not disappoint.

Emmaus Academy is a paid subscription in order to access this and all of the other courses. The Academy is run by the St. Paul Center which was founded by Dr. Scott Hahn. I was able to review this course free of charge in exchange for a thoughtful review of the content.

Dr. Reinhard begins his lectures by inviting the listeners into Tolkien’s daily life, proposing that before liturgical elements can be found within Tolkien’s works, we first have to understand just how liturgically grounded his life was. And boy, was it! As someone who has studied liturgy, I was deeply impressed with Tolkien’s knowledge of liturgical texts and the ways he seamlessly wove them into his regular correspondence and life. He even recommends memorizing important liturgical prayers as a critical way for his son, Christopher, to remain close to his faith while serving in World War II. 

Many of us know the prayers of the Mass and can say them along with the priest and community during Mass. Many of us know popular songs or poetry that can be recited along with the album playing. But have you ever tried to repeat them on your own, by yourself, without the text in front of you? It is an interesting and challenging exercise, because sometimes those prayers, songs, or poems you thought you knew so well are difficult to recall in full unless you have taken the time to deeply study them. Tolkien studied them deeply. 

This deep study of the liturgy and daily living it out (Tolkien attended Mass daily for the majority of his life) could not but shape and inform his writing. Dr. Reinhard goes through a number of examples, letters, and short stories, teasing this theory out before getting to what everyone is waiting for, The Lord of the Rings. I am a Tolkien lover, and I found many references and moments which made me smile as I recalled the wider story surrounding whatever portion was being referenced. However, Dr. Reinhard does a good job providing the wider context and details needed to understand whatever portion of whatever story he is using to illustrate his point.

I very much enjoyed this course. As I said, I already love Tolkien’s stories. But after this course, I have a deeper appreciation for who Tolkien was and how his quiet Catholicism helped him tell these masterful tales. I also have a better grasp on why these stories have such an inspirational quality. If you are someone who is on the fence about Tolkien, or hasn’t quite gotten through his stories, I would still recommend this course to you. I hope that you will find a new connection to Tolkien that inspires you to give his works a try. At the end of the day, as Dr. Reinhard explains, Tolkien’s works are about the exaltation of the humble (I’m looking at you, hobbit fans), which is, at it’s core, a most liturgical and Catholic viewpoint.

If all this isn’t enough, I talked at length about what I learned with Ben. These conversations, coupled with our 12 year old just finishing listening to an abridged version of The Lord of the Rings, we’ve had a lot of Tolkien in our house. But instead of being tired of hearing his name, Ben is now re-reading the series and we are slowly watching the Director’s Cuts of the films (for the unknown numbered time, these are favorites!). Basically, if you’ve been thinking about reading the series, or re-reading it, this course has the potential to tip the scales for you in a very good way.

Daily Graces. kktaliaferro.wordpress.com

Deadlines – An Advent Reflection

I have a love/hate relationship with deadlines. 

Deadlines are highly motivating. There is a clear project, direction, and end in sight. Deadlines can often spark creativity. Time instantly becomes more precious and there comes a moment when I just have to commit to a plan and go with it so that the deadline can be met. 

However, deadlines can also be hugely stressful. Deadlines apply pressure to finish a specific project in a specific window of time, even if there are other things I am more interested in focusing on. They can be unrealistic for the scope of a project, especially if a project has evolved to something larger than originally planned. Deadlines can feel defeating when they arrive before I am really ready to present what I’ve been working on. The project is finished in a rush and hasn’t had time to grow to it’s full potential, if it gets completed at all. 

I am a stay at home mom with a love of crafting and gift giving, so my deadlines are mostly self-imposed. The biggest deadline of them all is rapidly drawing upon us – Christmas. There are so many crafters in the world who are right now, in this very moment, scrambling to complete the projects they decided would make excellent Christmas gifts. Maybe they started early, but have so many gifts to make they still aren’t finished yet. Maybe they didn’t realize how long their project would take. Some only just began their crafting in the past few weeks because life and timing got away from them. They woke up on Dec. 1 and realized how many hats they wanted to knit for their co-workers and have been knitting non-stop since then. 

I have been in all of these circumstances. There was even one year I completed a pair of knitted socks for a loved one while we were driving to their house. I have made grand plans only to run out of time. This year, thankfully, my gift making required a large loom that will definitely not fit in the car, so I knew that back up plan would not work. I’m so happy to say that as of Dec. 12, my gift crafting is done (well, for now. There’s always the car ride to whip something else up) (Joke’s on me, I wrote that last line before we left. Guess what I’m doing while we drive…). 

As it does every Advent, the Church asks us to consider another deadline, a rather final one – the Second Coming of Christ. It actually brings a whole new meaning to this compound word we use so frequently – Dead. Line. A line which beyond is death. Christ’s return to earth is difficult for us to grapple with. It is a deadline, to be sure. Yet Jesus told us that we would not know the timing of it’s arrival. How are we supposed to prepare for a deadline that we don’t know the time or location of?

First and foremost, we listen to and pray with Scripture. We listen to John the Baptist, crying out in the desert for repentance. We listen to Jesus in His parables that teach us to stay awake and alert. We listen to St. Paul when he tells us to pray without ceasing, and to rejoice in the faith and salvation we have from Jesus Christ.

Second, we continue to seek out God in our everyday ordinary existence. This means looking for opportunities to love our neighbor. If we can go to bed every day thinking about the ways we helped others, served others, died to our own selfishness, and extended God’s love to those we met (be they new people or the same people we share each day with), we will be well on our way to heaven.  

Just because we don’t know when Jesus will come back does not mean the project of salvation isn’t the highest priority. Of all the things on your to-do list today, of all the projects and plans you would like to accomplish by a certain deadline, where does God’s plan for your sainthood fall?