Joyful Noise

ONV344KX9KIt was such a lovely day today! I was able to open the windows, let in light and lots of fresh air. The kids must have felt my good mood and, miracle of miracles, all fell asleep….AT THE SAME TIME! Yes, the capitals are not only appropriate for that statement, they are necessary. It was wonderful. I was able to sit in complete quiet, the breeze coming through the front windows and indulge my creative side for a few moments.

As I saw writing, I became aware of how my sense of hearing heightened as the stillness and quiet of the house lengthened. I could hear kids playing, dogs barking, the bustle of life just outside my door. I was drawn to the sound of a child playing and talking loudly.

As I listened, the talking turned, surprisingly, to song. It’s not uncommon for my kids to spontaneously burst out into song – we listen to so much music throughout the day. After naps we had a jam session – me on the guitar and John and Rosie taking turns playing harmonica and singing random nothings. At dinner tonight, John started singing “Human Again” from the Beauty and the Beast musical soundtrack. But our musical outbursts are usually confined to our house or car.

But I digress. This child was incredible. She was quite literally singing at the top of her lungs. It was as if she was the only person around and she had no shame or fear at being overheard. By now you may be trying to guess what song she was singing. Taylor Swift? Or perhaps Justin Bieber or Selena Gomez? Not a chance.

She was singing “One Thing Remains” by Passion, a Christian music group. She kept singing the same part over and over again, probably because it’s the chorus and it’s an easy musical line. “Your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me.” Over and over again, she bellowed with more gusto than even the best opera singers. She had no audience, there was no performance. Over and over again, “your love never fails, it never gives up, it never runs out on me” (Song here).

We go to church, Sunday after Sunday, expecting to meet God. And often we do. How many of us expect to meet God on the street corner at 2:30pm on a Thursday afternoon? This little girl proclaimed the purest praise that I think I’ve ever heard. It was so inspiring and has stuck with me. What a profound statement of faith.

I will hold onto this memory. At moments of doubt, uncertainty, or fear, I hope that this young girl’s voice comes to mind. Her joyful, innocent praise should fill all of our hearts. It makes me think of Psalm 100:

jumping shadowA psalm of thanksgiving.

Shout joyfully to the LORD, all you lands;

serve the LORD with gladness;

come before him with joyful song.

*Know that the LORD is God,

he made us, we belong to him,

we are his people, the flock he shepherds.

Enter his gates with thanksgiving,

his courts with praise.

Give thanks to him, bless his name;

good indeed is the LORD,

His mercy endures forever,

his faithfulness lasts through every generation.

NFP Week 2015

At some point I will probably write a much longer post about our experience with NFP, but for now, I just wanted to give a quick shout out to NFP Week 2015. NFP – Natural Family Planning, is so much more than child spacing. It has been a blessing for my marriage and my family. It is not easy but the fruits are sweeter because of the challenge. If you are interested in learning more about NFP, you can definitely comment below or check out any of the links below.

How Natural Family Planning Has Changed My Life
Dawn Farias

“Be Her Joseph!”
Tom Mealey

Redeemed Sexuality
Theresa Notare

Just Around the Riverbend

I hope you all, whoever you all are =) , haven’t felt too neglected the past week or so. I had some family visiting and decided to take a little break to spend good quality time that I don’t often get with them. But, they are home now and we are re-finding our routines. It was a lovely visit and we all were sorry it was over. I know that my family will miss us as much as we will miss them, though there are probably a few things they are happy to be leaving behind them as they board their plane to head home.

One thing that they are likely happy to leave behind are all the movie soundtracks we listen to. All, day, long. Really, we have music playing pretty consistently during the day, periodically breaking out into song and dance to go with it. John has a sensitive side and is very drawn to visuals, so he loves movies and TV. However, he becomes overly committed emotionally to pretty much every character he encounters, good or bad. One way we are helping ease him into stories and plots is through the music. We can play a soundtrack and talk about who the characters are, what is happening, who is a “good guy” and who is a “bad guy.” We are also doing some music appreciation by letting the soundtracks play when it is only instrumental music so John and Rosie can try to figure out if it’s a happy song, a sad song, an angry song, etc.

Our current obsession just switched from Tarzan to Pocahontas, in case disney-pocahontasyou didn’t catch the reference in the title. I haven’t been able to get this song out of my head! Due to the fact that it’s on repeat, I’ve had a lot of time to think about it. Just before the song officially starts, Pocahontas’ father, Powhatan, has a few lines of song/dialogue. They are:

As the river cuts his path
Though the river’s proud and strong
He will choose the smoothest course
That’s why rivers live so long

They’re steady …
As the steady beating drum

Then the song starts:

What I love most about rivers is:
You can’t step in the same river twice
The water’s always changing, always flowing
But people, I guess, can’t live like that
We all must pay a price
To be safe, we lose our chance of ever knowing
What’s around the riverbend
Waiting just around the riverbend

(lyrics from http://www.fpx.de/fp/Disney/Lyrics/Pocahontas.html)

And so on. I was thinking about their two different perspectives on rivers. Chief Powhatan sees them as steady, constant and unchanging. Yet his daughter has a completely different take on it. I found myself thinking about how these two views of the river can be applied to life. In some ways, our lives are steady and constant. We have routine and ritual. We wake up, we live our day, we go to sleep, we do it all over again. But our lives are always constantly changing and evolving. I am seeing it every day as Clare grows. Just 10 days ago she was starting to cruise around on furniture, holding on with two hands and taking tentative steps. Today, literally 10 minutes ago as I type this, she was walking along a wall, got to the end, looked at me across the room, let go and took about 5 solo steps before falling. Incredible! What a change.

Sometimes change is hard. In life, there are always unknowns and uncertainty. We all have our own riverbends. We can’t quite see around them. As we get closer, we might get a bit of a glimpse, but we won’t see the full picture until we round that corner. Maybe there will be a calm stream. Perhaps a swift current or even some rapids. It’s difficult to anticipate what is unknown.

It is easy to be paralyzed by this unknowing. There is a lot of risk turning that corner. It may feel like the unknown is too big to risk the safety of our current spot on the river. This has been a challenge for me for a long time. I like to plan and as I’ve shared before, I am an excellent worrier. But God has been working on me, giving me lots of opportunities in this Air Force life to let go of the worry and the long-term plan in favor of His plan, both for me and for my family.

As I’ve let go, I think I’m starting to understand something about the riverbends in life. If I believe that God’s love and grace has been with me up until now, then I should logically believe that His love and grace is waiting for me around that riverbend. If His love and grace are waiting for me, then what’s around the riverbend isn’t necessarily unknown. Yes, I don’t know the exact situations or circumstances that I will be facing, but I do know where God will be, and isn’t that the most important thing? There is a great prayer that expresses this. It is part of a much longer prayer by St. Patrick.

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Christ with me, Christ before me, Christ behind me,
Christ in me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ on my right, Christ on my left,

(For full prayer, click here)

I just love the concrete imagery. Now, as I wonder about what will happen next for our family, especially if and when we will be moving to a new duty station, I can slow myself down and think of this prayer. I can even add to it.

Christ with me, Christ before me, Christ behind me,
Christ in me, Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ on my right, Christ on my left,
Christ even beyond my sight.