This Gospel is about doing what you say you will do. It’s about taking stock in whether you mean what you say – does your “yes” mean yes and your “no” mean no. This can be in regard to our relationship with God, with others, and even with ourselves. Often, for myself at least, I might say I want to do something, but when it comes down to it I find excuses not to make the effort. This happens especially with changes that are meant to grow and stretch me, moving out of relative comfort and into a new space.
The YouTube channel attached to this blog was a pretty big change for me, and the habit of writing weekly which followed was both surprising and challenging. Some weeks, I’m so happy this new shift has happened. Others, I feel like I’m scraping the bottom of the creative barrel, trying to find connections between the Gospel and life. The Holy Spirit continues inspiring me, and I am learning each week to lean more fully on His inspiration.
To be honest, that’s what this post is, the bottom of the creative barrel. I have been thinking more and more about what I want to write for the Advent journal (if you are new, each year I write a free journal which you can download and print. The previous years are found here). This is taking up a lot of creative brain space. I’m also feeling nervous because I haven’t actually started yet, and Advent is quickly approaching. I need to get to work, but I’m nervous to start. What if I don’t have enough material? Enough inspiration?
I hope you are catching the irony here – in one paragraph I tell you how I am more fully relying on the Holy Spirit for these reflections. In the next, I’m back to trying to rely on myself and my own sources of inspiration.
I am so thankful, again and again, for Bible study and for the women God continues blessing me with. This week, one of them asked for the grace to go, “at the pace of the Holy Spirit.” I loved this image. If we keep pace with the Holy Spirit, we won’t be looking back at what was, and we won’t be sprinting ahead trying to see around the bend a little sooner. We will be living in the present moment, focusing on what God wants us to focus on.
What does this mean for me? It means I need to get working on Advent, because that’s where the Holy Spirit is focusing my attention. It also means laying some crafting and TV time aside to prioritize my writing time during this period.
To bring it full circle, if we are keeping pace with the Holy Spirit, then what we say, “Yes” to will be what God desires, and we will accomplish it joyfully. Even in hard things, we will discover an inner peace because we will be doing God’s Will. When we say, “No” to what God wants, our pacing will be off. We will stumble, struggle, and miss the mark. Thankfully, most thankfully, the Holy Spirit never gets too far ahead or behind. We always have the opportunity open to us to refine our steps to rejoin Him and His pace.
I have 2 ideas for refining our steps, both of which I am actively putting into practice this week so I don’t have a lot of data for you at the moment.
- Habit stacking. I struggle with plantar fasciitis. I am supposed to be stretching throughout the day, but often don’t. I regret it, complain about it, but haven’t done a whole lot about it. I am supposed to be taking care of my body as it is made in God’s image, St. Paul reminds us that we are temples where God dwells. I need to change my attitude and find the time to stretch. It occurred to me this week that my powered toothbrush runs for 2 minutes, with 4 – 30 second intervals. I already brush my teeth, no brainer. Now, I am stretching during that time. I am stacking my habits.
- Journaling. With all the writing I do, and in talking with other writers, I continue to be drawn to journaling. But it just feels like more work, rather than a source of intellectual and spiritual nourishment. I recently was told about a notebook model which I’m going to try once it arrives in the mail. Each page is one day of the year, with 5 sections, one for each of the 5 years. The intent is to write down one line, one quote, one thought, every day. If you’ve been following the YouTube videos you will know I’ve been praying Morning and Night prayer consistently since May. Lately, a line or two have been standing out to me, and I’ve wanted to remember them without knowing how I would accomplish that. Welcome this new journal idea to that desire and now I have a way. My plan (again, brand new ideas I’m sharing here), is to write down one quote or verse from Morning Prayer every day. It will take minimal time, but will begin to build a habit of writing something down every single day. I’ll keep you posted about how it goes.
As I said, this wasn’t the most organized of posts. I am seriously considering taking a break from weekly reflections until I finish (and by finish, I mean both start and then finish) the Advent devotional. I will post a notice if that becomes the case. Thank you for sticking with me this far.
Daily Graces 