Circumstances

No one lives with perfect circumstances. Things might be going really well, but there is always something in your life that could be fixed up. Even in the lives of Mary, Joseph, and Jesus – two of whom were perfect people in that they were without sin – even they lived in imperfect circumstances. We don’t get to pick our circumstances but we do choose how we respond to them. The Christmas season highlights a few different biblical characters and the way they chose to respond to unusual, perhaps even seemingly imperfect, circumstances.

Zachariah, the father of John the Baptist, responded with fear and doubt when told about his coming son by the angel. He relied on his own understanding and was not open to the possibilities the Holy Spirit could create. Mary, on the other hand, received a message from an angel about a baby as well. But in her case, she remained open to the action of the Holy Spirit, being willing to cooperate with God’s plans even though she did not understand them. She was filled with the Holy Spirit and even before Jesus was born we are able to hear how both Mary and Elizabeth (John the Baptist’s mother) speak inspired words to one another. Both Mary’s fiat, her “yes” to God, and her Magnificat spring from her faith and trust in God’s love.

The Holy Spirit still speaks to us today if we are attentive. Sometimes in the words of others, sometimes in the words that come out of our own mouth. Sometimes, even in our imperfect circumstances.

This fall, my mom was diagnosed with a glioblastoma tumor in her brain. This is an aggressive type of tumor and it was less than 48 hours between diagnosis and brain surgery to remove as much as possible. Our whole world was completely turned upside down. Thankfully, the surgery was as successful as the doctors could hope for. There is still a long road to go, and we don’t know the twists and turns that will come.

Before my mom was diagnosed, she had some speech and word finding issues. After surgery, the doctors said she could have a hard time with speech due to the location of the tumor. We have some funny stories of those early days and the word switches, misses, and adaptations my mom came up with as her healing began. Every so often, she still slips. However, there is one particular slip that I believe is Holy Spirit inspired.

While the chemo my mom was prescribed are daily oral pills she can take at home, radiation had to happen at a cancer center. Every weekday for 6 weeks she went to the center for treatment. After a few visits and settling into a routine, she began calling “radiation” “adoration.” Obviously, these two things are definitely different. And yet, as we talked about it, I can’t help but feel there is some kind of Holy Spirit inspiration between the switch.

What happens in radiation? For a few minutes (really, less than 10, it’s rather remarkable), the person has to lie in perfect stillness while the mechanisms and machinery delivers the radiation treatment to a specific and carefully aligned area of the body. There isn’t anything my mom can do to make this process more effective or efficient except to be faithful to the treatment process. If she didn’t go every day, the effectiveness would greatly diminish. If she wasn’t compliant to the doctor’s recommendations for staying active even when she was exhausted, to try her best to eat as well as she could even when all she wanted was saltines, her body wouldn’t be as strong as it could be to continue fighting this invisible enemy.

What is adoration? Adoration is coming to adore Christ. It is taking time out of our day to place Jesus at the center of our life. Typically, people are pretty still during adoration, with sitting or kneeling being the predominant postures. Adoration is an opportunity to open ourselves up to Jesus’ action in our lives, to let him highlight the areas of our life in need of his mercy, his healing, and his love. In Adoration we can receive inspiration for how to live our lives, what actions should we do or avoid that will help us more fully follow God’s Will. We faithfully show up to adoration, but it’s God’s action that is on display.

From this light, there is a lot in common between radiation and adoration. If you are willing, I’d like to invite you to pray for my mom, Mary Kay, and for her healing. I’d also invite you to pray for my dad, Steve, as he walks this journey with her. My parents have both asked for prayers specifically through Chiara Lubich’s intercession. Long-time readers will hopefully recognize Chiara as the founder of the Focolare Movement that our family is a part of. Below is the prayer of intercession that is officially recognized by the Church. Chiara is a named Servant of God but cannot move forward in the canonization process without miracles associated with her intercession. God willing, my mom can be one of those miracles.


Eternal Father, source of Love, and of every light and goodness, we give You thanks for the charism of unity given to Chiara and for the remarkable witness to the Church and humanity that she gave of this charism, remaining faithful to Jesus Forsaken.

Grant us, O Father, through the action of the Holy Spirit and the Word lived in the present moment, and in following Chiara’s example, the grace to contribute together with all people of good will to the fulfilment of Your Son’s will: “That they may all be one!”

Humbly we ask You to grant us, Your children, to live in mutual love and in love of all so as to rejoice in the presence of the Risen One while, in communion with Chiara and through her intercession, we ask You, if it be Your will, the grace for the complete healing of Mary Kay Jennrich from brain cancer, through Jesus and for the glory of the Most Holy Trinity.

Amen

If you’d like to learn more about Chiara and the movement, I have three resources for you. First is the film Love Conquers All that can be viewed on Formed.org. Many parishes subscribe to this streaming database. Check with your local parish if you are unsure if you have free access or not. The second is the primary website of the Focolare Movement. Third is the main media resource for the Focolare which has videos, articles, and other resources you may be interested in.

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Seventeenth Sunday of Ordinary Time – Ignatian Imaginative Prayer

This Sunday’s Gospel reading includes some famous imagery. Jesus tells us that the Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure in a field, or a pearl of great price. In both instances, a person happens upon their desired object, surprised to discover it. They swiftly go to sell all they have so they can purchase their prize, so precious it is to them.

Jesus is a master storyteller. There is so much to unpack and explore in His teachings and parables. While there are a number of angles to approach Jesus’ parables, I’d like to hold up Ignatian Contemplation, or Imaginative Prayer, as an excellent way to spend time with these parables. If you are not familiar with Ignatian imaginative prayer, or Ignatian spirituality in general, Ignatianspirituality.com is a great resource for you to check out. In a most basic definition, Ignatian imaginative prayer involves placing yourself in the scene depicted by Scripture, something from the Gospels most often, though this method is not exclusive to the Gospels. You might be a bystander in the scene, observing as things unfold. Or, you might put yourself in the place of a certain character.

A classic example is the Parable of the Prodigal Son. In imaginative prayer, you might first place yourself in the scene as the Good Samaritan. Hear what God has to say to you about your actions and attitudes in light of the Good Samaritan’s choices. Then, a second time (either that day or in the near future), place yourself in the scene as the beaten man. A third time, as the priest or Levite. A fourth time as a robber. A fifth time as the inn keeper. A sixth time as a silent observer. This one passage, only 22 verses, seen from 6 different perspectives. This is a powerful tool!

It is also possible to walk through a passage with a guide of sorts. Either a person reading aloud, or, as I propose to do for you here, a written guide that goes through the passage. There will be prompts for reflection, questions to discover how you are perceiving a specific moment or action, moments of prayer, etc.

As I studied this Gospel, I was struck by the amount of movement happening in just a few short lines. There is a discovery, there is a flurry of activity, there is a return, there is rest. So, if you will permit me to walk with you, let’s go through Matthew 13:45-46 together. I’ll include the verses, as well as questions for you to consider. I’ll be letting you into my own imaginative prayer as I consider the story of the Pearl of Great Price from the perspective of the merchant who finds it.


The kingdom of heaven is like a merchant searching for fine pearls.

Mathew 13:45

It is a normal day. The sun is shining, I can hear birds singing. I do not expect anything unordinary to happen. In the back of my mind, I know I am looking for something, a jewel or pearl perhaps, something really worth looking at. Something so beyond compare in its perfection and beauty. I do not expect to find it today, I’m not sure I expect to ever find it. But every so often, the desire for it comes to me and I wish desperately I could find it.

What are you wishing for? What do you wish would happen in your life? Where are you looking for fulfillment?

I am walking through the shops and stalls of the market. I pause by stands as items catch my attention. I am not looking for anything particular on this trip. Money changes hands, my sack becomes heavier. I’ll need to return to my caravan soon, but there is one last stall to check. You never know what you’ll find when you aren’t looking for anything special. I go over, and in my shock, I drop my sack.

The most beautiful, precious pearl I have ever seen is on a piece of cloth.

What does the Kingdom of Heaven look like to you? What would make you stop dead in your tracks when you saw it, achieved it? If Jesus were speaking this parable to you, what image would He use?

When he finds a pearl of great price, he goes and sells all that he has and buys it.

Matthew 13:46

I am in complete shock and elation. I never thought I would find such a pearl! With my mouth still hanging open, I hurriedly pick up my fallen sack of goods, paltry items in comparison to the beauty and perfection before me. I offer them to the merchant. “Please,” I beg him, “Please I must purchase this pearl.” His price is high, higher than the goods I have with me. I think, maybe, if I can sell everything I have in reserve, that might be enough. I had him my bag in the hopes he won’t sell the pearl to anyone else. I race back to my caravan and start shouting orders to unload everything. My servants are confused, we aren’t meant to sell these items here but along the road in the next few towns. My joy is bubbling over as I wildly grin, “I found it! I have found the most perfect, most precious, most lovely pearl. It is worth every shekel the merchant is asking for it and more. It is priceless to me and nothing is going to stop me from acquiring it. We sell everything!”

Have you ever experienced a joy like this? The merchant almost sounds foolish, doesn’t he? Yet how many of us have been a fool in love, walking around with that silly, classic grin and the feeling of weightlessness? Have you ever felt this way about God, the gift of salvation or the gift of forgiveness? Is this a feeling you desire to have about God?

What lengths are you willing to go to be at Mass on Sunday? What are you willing to sacrifice for prayer time? How foolish are you willing to appear to others for the sake of the Truth of the Good News?

After selling all I have, even after telling my servants I can no longer pay them and that I am selling the caravan itself along with my favorite cloak, I finally have enough. It took some time, but I was relentless. I have nothing left in the eyes of my servants or the people I sold my goods to. They do not understand that what I am gaining far surpasses anything I am leaving behind.

Trembling, I approach the merchant. He smiles warmly, the only one with understanding in his eyes. I hand him his payment. Carefully, reverently, he wraps the pearl in its cloth and holds out his hand. I open my hands and extend them, not wanting to risk the pearl dropping. He places the pearl in my hands and closes my fingers around it.

“You have worked hard and sacrificed much, ” the merchant says to me. “Yes,” I reply. “But this moment has made it all worth it. I am finally at peace. I am no longer searching for anything in the world. All I need, I have. All I desire, I possess. My soul is finally at rest.”

Do you believe this kind of peace is meant for you? Would you be able to let go of everything for the sake of Jesus? What are you holding onto? What is keeping you from letting Jesus enter fully into your soul?


I hope this reflection resonated with you in some way. Use it as a springboard to begin a conversation with God. Perhaps one question or section really stood out to you. Go back to that place and spend some time there. What is God trying to say to you, specifically to you?

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Fifth Sunday of Easter 2023

Jesus tells us in the Gospel passage for this Sunday:

I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

John 14:6-7

Not only is this another one of the “I AM” statements we talked about last week, but this is the basic roadmap to get to Heaven. Jesus is the Way. He is the way for all of us. Not just the ordained, not just the religious, not just the uber-religious little elderly ladies who go to daily Mass. All of us.

Jesus said He is the Way (we are going to say “way” a lot today). He is not one choice among many, He is not just the best option before us. This is a definitive statement. Before we go any further, it’s important to recognize something so basic we often over look it. We are not God and cannot put limits on Him. I know, call me crazy, but we as creatures don’t get to decide the choices of the Creator. Jesus tells us He is the Way, and if He desires that all people come to the Father through Him, He’s going to figure out how that is going to look in a world with a multitude of religious beliefs. We might not understand it, but that’s not what we are called to do. So for the sake of this reflection, let go of any concern about how others will get to heaven. YOU have heard Jesus’ words today and they were meant for you to ponder.

The question then becomes, what are we, who have heard these words of Jesus, called to do?

I’m going to throw a lot of quotes at you today, mostly because others can say this much more eloquently than I can. But I’ll toss in my “in plain speech” after to keep things very practical.

First quote: Pope Francis’ Apostolic Exhortation Gaudete et exsultate in which he is quoting Vatican II:

I would like to insist primarily on the call to holiness that the Lord addresses to each of us, the call that he also addresses, personally, to you: “Be holy, for I am holy” (Lev 11:44; cf. 1 Pet 1:16). The Second Vatican Council stated this clearly: “Strengthened by so many and such great means of salvation, all the faithful, whatever their condition or state, are called by the Lord – each in his or her own way – to that perfect holiness by which the Father himself is perfect”.

Gaudete et exsultate no. 10

Every single one of us is called by God. We are each uniquely made by Him for a specific purpose, no one was made as superfluous fluff to be a filler in this world. This means God personally knows you, loves you, and desires to have a relationship with you. He wants you to become like Him in as many ways as possible. To become as close to God as you allow Him to transform you into – that is holiness.

Second quote: From the conversations between Abbé Joseph de Beaufort and Brother Lawrence, a monk in the 1600s.

That our sanctification did not depend upon changing our works, but in doing that for God’s sake which we commonly do for our own. That it was lamentable to see how many people mistook the means for the end, addicting themselves to certain works, which they performed very imperfectly, by reason of their human or selfish regards.

The Practice of the Presence of God, pg. 18

God made us who we are, with distinct passions, interests, talents, and personalities. He doesn’t want a hundred thousand million clones of the same perfect person. If He did, He would have created us to be. We are all different. The point of the Christian journey isn’t to lose our unique selves so that we come to be a perfect model of St. Therese or St. Thomas Aquinas or even Mary. We can do a great many good and even Saint-like things and still make no forward progress in our spiritual journey. It’s a bit like running on a treadmill. We got a lot of exercise, but we didn’t actually go anywhere. We turned the means into the ends. What, then, is the real end we should be seeking?

Third Quote: Also from the conversations between Abbé Joseph de Beaufort and Brother Lawrence.

That many do not advance in the Christian progress, because they stick in penances and particular exercises, while they neglect the love of God, which is the end…That there needed neither art nor science for going to God, but only a heart resolutely determined to apply itself to nothing but Him, or for His sake, and to love Him only.

The Practice of the Presence of God, pg. 15

Love of God. That’s the end. That’s what heaven is. To stand in God’s presence, to bask in the Creator’s light, to feel the intensity of His love for us and for our whole being to love Him back. This is what our end goal of life is. Jesus is the Way to the Father because Jesus shows us in a real and tangible way just how much God loves us. Jesus said, “No one has greater love than this, to lay down one’s life for one’s friends” (John 15:13). Jesus is our blueprint. If we love like Jesus, we will know the Father.

The next question then is how? How do we orient our life so that we do all things for love of God? A few quotes here:

Two from St. Terese of Lisieux

You know well enough that Our Lord does not look so much at the greatness of our actions, nor even at their difficulty, but at the love with which we do them.

Miss no single opportunity of making some small sacrifice, here by a smiling look, there by a kindly word; always doing the smallest right and doing it all for love.

St. Mother Teresa

Not all of us can do great things, but we can all do things with great love.

One more from Br. Lawrence

The time of business, does not with me differ from the time of prayer; and in the noise and clutter of my kitchen, while several persons are at the same time calling for different things, I possess God inn as great tranquility as if I were upon my knees at the Blessed Sacrament.

The Practice of the Presence of God, pg. 22

In real life, this means being patient and loving even when my 2 year old is being obnoxious at Mass (see the video for this week if you want quite the story). It means folding my husband’s shirts the way he likes them folded even though, in my opinion, my way is faster. Wishing the person who just cut me off on the high way a pleasant day. Getting up mid-breakfast with a smile on my face to make my 3 year old a second piece of toast that I knew he would want and offered to make before I sat down but he insisted he wouldn’t and has since changed his mind.

In case you haven’t guessed, these are all real life examples, from this week alone. And I failed in each of these opportunities to love God through the people He placed in my life.

The wonderful thing about God (there are too many to count , this is just one of them) is His infinite patience with us. No matter how many times we fail, He extends a hand to help us up. Likewise, no matter how many times we succeed, He delights in us and in our desire to be close to Him. God does not get tired of us.

So the last question is one for you. What does this kind of love look like in your life? Or perhaps put another way, who does this love look like in your life?

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